[CoconutWarrior9] Jackrip - A genuine blacklist appeal
Posted: Tue Jan 31, 2023 9:49 pm
BYOND account: Jackrip
Character name: Korol Konets
Ban type: Blacklist, discord + server + forums
Ban length: Permanent
Ban reason: Joked about doxing an administrator and posted their social media account in another discord. This is not acceptable and per Rule 7,Doxing and SWATing: Doing it, encouraging it, or joking about it will lead to a permanent in-game, Discord, and forum ban.
Time ban was placed:2021-05-27 02:04:22
Server you were playing on when banned: N/A
Round ID in which ban was placed: N/A
Your side of the story:
Let me start by saying that this is a blacklist ban, and likely cannot be appealed. Knowing that, this is first and foremost an appeal to those I have wronged, as well as the ss13 community. Secondly, an appeal to MSO, who is the only one who can lift my ban. I want to note that I had previously posted an "appeal" written by an AI. That was created because I was afraid to face the reality of coming clean to this community. It was made in jest, but the situation is very serious, and as such deserves a serious response. That post must have been disgusting to those I hurt as it made light of my awful behavior, and I'm sorry.
Second, the ban reason isn't a holistic view of what I did, and in fact hides a lot of the ugliness and toxicity around my actions. The first time I appealed I blamed the victim, argued for my innocence, and genuinely thought I was in the right. You can see that in the original appeal here viewtopic.php?f=34&t=29175&p=601425&hil ... ip#p601425.
I want to break down how toxic and atrocious my behavior really was. But before that, let's give a quick non-opinionated summary as to what happened: I posted an ss13 player's digg profile to a private discord, threw out a litany of insults behind their back, and then attacked someone who I thought had notified administrators about my actions. You can see exactly what I said in the original appeal towards the bottom.
Now, I did doxx someone, even if their profile name matched, full stop. I posted an external social media account for an ss13 player to a fringe community. I'm very lucky that community I shared it to were better than I am. They let the TGStation administrators know immediately and warned the person who got doxxed. I might have damaged their career, social life, and personal relationships by sharing that link. There is zero excuse for doing something like this, and anyone doing this absolutely deserves to be removed from the community.
I've thought a lot about how I behaved and why I did it. I think I was acting out of pure ego, addiction, and toxicity. This game had become such an obsession for me that I viewed people I had problems with in game as real life enemies, dehumanizing them and attacking the person behind the screen. This went beyond the person I doxxed, but to coders I disagreed with, other players, and admins. My own distorted egotistical view made me believe I was in the right, and anyone who had gone against me didn't deserve respect or decency. My perspective was toxic, pathetic, and harmful. Words can't express my guilt and regret for acting like this towards all of you, I ruined many friendships I had been building for years, and left a disgusting mark on a wonderful community.
Alongside the doxx I was so angry with the situation I had a full on meltdown towards some innocent bystander. They didn't do ANYTHING. And whoever did was completely in the right anyways. The things I said speak to a toxic, egotistical mindset. I'm very sorry for how I treated those I hurt, and while I don't expect you to forgive me, I hope my apology can bring some peace of mind to those involved.
Why you think you should be unbanned: I've spent a lot of time thinking about my actions, and how I've hurt others. The fact is that I don't deserve to be unbanned. With great callousness I hurt the ss13 community, I damaged peoples lives, and I irreparably destroyed my reputation. I just can't go forward without trying to make it right. I've spent a lot of time working on myself since I was blacklisted, through therapy, health, marriage, friendships, and work. Only now can I see the mistakes I've made. I would love a chance to try again, to repair these bridges, to prove I can be a better person. I ask that you give me a chance at redemption.
References of good conduct: None. I've been entirely absent from the community and other servers, besides that which I hosted: Voidcrew. I shut it down recently but while it was online I tried to give players the best experience I could. I learned about the trials of administration, coding, maintenance, and the work that goes into hosting a server. It gave me some eye-opening perspective and has made me regret how I treated others even more.
Character name: Korol Konets
Ban type: Blacklist, discord + server + forums
Ban length: Permanent
Ban reason: Joked about doxing an administrator and posted their social media account in another discord. This is not acceptable and per Rule 7,Doxing and SWATing: Doing it, encouraging it, or joking about it will lead to a permanent in-game, Discord, and forum ban.
Time ban was placed:2021-05-27 02:04:22
Server you were playing on when banned: N/A
Round ID in which ban was placed: N/A
Your side of the story:
Let me start by saying that this is a blacklist ban, and likely cannot be appealed. Knowing that, this is first and foremost an appeal to those I have wronged, as well as the ss13 community. Secondly, an appeal to MSO, who is the only one who can lift my ban. I want to note that I had previously posted an "appeal" written by an AI. That was created because I was afraid to face the reality of coming clean to this community. It was made in jest, but the situation is very serious, and as such deserves a serious response. That post must have been disgusting to those I hurt as it made light of my awful behavior, and I'm sorry.
Second, the ban reason isn't a holistic view of what I did, and in fact hides a lot of the ugliness and toxicity around my actions. The first time I appealed I blamed the victim, argued for my innocence, and genuinely thought I was in the right. You can see that in the original appeal here viewtopic.php?f=34&t=29175&p=601425&hil ... ip#p601425.
I want to break down how toxic and atrocious my behavior really was. But before that, let's give a quick non-opinionated summary as to what happened: I posted an ss13 player's digg profile to a private discord, threw out a litany of insults behind their back, and then attacked someone who I thought had notified administrators about my actions. You can see exactly what I said in the original appeal towards the bottom.
Now, I did doxx someone, even if their profile name matched, full stop. I posted an external social media account for an ss13 player to a fringe community. I'm very lucky that community I shared it to were better than I am. They let the TGStation administrators know immediately and warned the person who got doxxed. I might have damaged their career, social life, and personal relationships by sharing that link. There is zero excuse for doing something like this, and anyone doing this absolutely deserves to be removed from the community.
I've thought a lot about how I behaved and why I did it. I think I was acting out of pure ego, addiction, and toxicity. This game had become such an obsession for me that I viewed people I had problems with in game as real life enemies, dehumanizing them and attacking the person behind the screen. This went beyond the person I doxxed, but to coders I disagreed with, other players, and admins. My own distorted egotistical view made me believe I was in the right, and anyone who had gone against me didn't deserve respect or decency. My perspective was toxic, pathetic, and harmful. Words can't express my guilt and regret for acting like this towards all of you, I ruined many friendships I had been building for years, and left a disgusting mark on a wonderful community.
Alongside the doxx I was so angry with the situation I had a full on meltdown towards some innocent bystander. They didn't do ANYTHING. And whoever did was completely in the right anyways. The things I said speak to a toxic, egotistical mindset. I'm very sorry for how I treated those I hurt, and while I don't expect you to forgive me, I hope my apology can bring some peace of mind to those involved.
Why you think you should be unbanned: I've spent a lot of time thinking about my actions, and how I've hurt others. The fact is that I don't deserve to be unbanned. With great callousness I hurt the ss13 community, I damaged peoples lives, and I irreparably destroyed my reputation. I just can't go forward without trying to make it right. I've spent a lot of time working on myself since I was blacklisted, through therapy, health, marriage, friendships, and work. Only now can I see the mistakes I've made. I would love a chance to try again, to repair these bridges, to prove I can be a better person. I ask that you give me a chance at redemption.
References of good conduct: None. I've been entirely absent from the community and other servers, besides that which I hosted: Voidcrew. I shut it down recently but while it was online I tried to give players the best experience I could. I learned about the trials of administration, coding, maintenance, and the work that goes into hosting a server. It gave me some eye-opening perspective and has made me regret how I treated others even more.