[Cheshify] xPokee - I fucked up.
Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2023 8:42 pm
Ban Details
BYOND account: xPokee
Character name: Marianne Catlay, Rana Catlay, Kira Gadow
Ban type: Server
Ban length: Permanent
Ban reason: In an external Discord with friends, shared meta-information about active shifts. Rules 2 prohibits all instances of metacomms, and doing so in a separate discord server is not allowed.
Time ban was placed: 2023-09-05 19:07:41
Server you were playing on when banned: Manuel
Round ID in which ban was placed: 214025
Reasons for Appealing
Are you appealing a validly placed permaban and would like another chance to be unbanned?: Yes
If yes, please explain why you believe it should be accepted: Last November, in a moment of anger, I fucked up and metacommed with a friend of mine in DMs.
Then in January in another moment of anger I did the same thing again. This was very much against the rules and wrong for me to do. I knew it then yet I chose not to come clean about it because I was afraid to face punishment for it because at the time I was unhealthily addicted to Manuel, which can be seen by my playtime.
Two months ago, everything that had happened between me and the others was exposed. In fact, I was the one who exposed half of it due to realizing the error of my ways, even when that included exposing someone who is like a brother to me and nearly losing that friendship because of it. Yet I did not originally come clean at that time either. Originally when I woke up and realized what was happening, that I was finally about to face justice for my actions, I panicked and deleted the channel to try to protect myself and my friends, which was one of the biggest fuckups I made in that series of events. A fuckup that I then tried to rectify by coming clean, and showing *all* of the evidence, even that not previously known to staff members.
As for what happened after my ban, the part where I spouted nonsense conspiracy theories, that was one of the biggest mistakes I could have ever made, and I want to try to explain why that happened. As I previously said, I was hopelessly addicted to /TG/, and as shameful as it is, being suddenly cut off from it sent me spiraling big time, to the extent that I hit the lowest point I ever had in my life. And I am truly sorry for spreading nonsense like that in my broken state.
Now for why I believe I should be unbanned. At the time leading up to my ban, I had realized how shitty of a player I used to be, due to the metacommunications and metaganging activities that I had done in the past, and was actively trying to improve, even running for headmin with a platform of cracking down on metagangs to try to stop good players from falling down the same rabbit hole that my ex-friends and I had. After my ban, I seeked help, got new medicine, and started getting my life together, as well as drastically cutting back the time that I've been spending on SS13. I haven't talked to anyone from that friend group in two months, with the exception of one or two people, and have otherwise distanced myself from them. I left that server the day I was banned. Since my ban I have started played on Beestation a little bit, playing for about two rounds a day, and could probably get a reference of good behaviour if needed, but have otherwise spent most of my time playing SS13 on Towelstation, where I will not be getting a reference from due to that being bad form with me being the host of it.
If I get unbanned, I will spend significantly less time on /tg/ to the best of my ability, to avoid a situation like this ever happening again. I truly hope you will give me a second chance and have me back, but if not I understand. Regardless of the outcome, I am sorry to everyone I have let down, and to the people that hoped all the rumours about the stuff with the felinid metagang not being true.
Is the reason/note factually accurate and fair?: Yes
BYOND account: xPokee
Character name: Marianne Catlay, Rana Catlay, Kira Gadow
Ban type: Server
Ban length: Permanent
Ban reason: In an external Discord with friends, shared meta-information about active shifts. Rules 2 prohibits all instances of metacomms, and doing so in a separate discord server is not allowed.
Time ban was placed: 2023-09-05 19:07:41
Server you were playing on when banned: Manuel
Round ID in which ban was placed: 214025
Reasons for Appealing
Are you appealing a validly placed permaban and would like another chance to be unbanned?: Yes
If yes, please explain why you believe it should be accepted: Last November, in a moment of anger, I fucked up and metacommed with a friend of mine in DMs.
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As for what happened after my ban, the part where I spouted nonsense conspiracy theories, that was one of the biggest mistakes I could have ever made, and I want to try to explain why that happened. As I previously said, I was hopelessly addicted to /TG/, and as shameful as it is, being suddenly cut off from it sent me spiraling big time, to the extent that I hit the lowest point I ever had in my life. And I am truly sorry for spreading nonsense like that in my broken state.
Now for why I believe I should be unbanned. At the time leading up to my ban, I had realized how shitty of a player I used to be, due to the metacommunications and metaganging activities that I had done in the past, and was actively trying to improve, even running for headmin with a platform of cracking down on metagangs to try to stop good players from falling down the same rabbit hole that my ex-friends and I had. After my ban, I seeked help, got new medicine, and started getting my life together, as well as drastically cutting back the time that I've been spending on SS13. I haven't talked to anyone from that friend group in two months, with the exception of one or two people, and have otherwise distanced myself from them. I left that server the day I was banned. Since my ban I have started played on Beestation a little bit, playing for about two rounds a day, and could probably get a reference of good behaviour if needed, but have otherwise spent most of my time playing SS13 on Towelstation, where I will not be getting a reference from due to that being bad form with me being the host of it.
If I get unbanned, I will spend significantly less time on /tg/ to the best of my ability, to avoid a situation like this ever happening again. I truly hope you will give me a second chance and have me back, but if not I understand. Regardless of the outcome, I am sorry to everyone I have let down, and to the people that hoped all the rumours about the stuff with the felinid metagang not being true.
Is the reason/note factually accurate and fair?: Yes