Art Connoisseur Peanut

[Malkraz]

Bottom post of the previous page:

https://tgstation13.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=7&t=29309
now this is a spicy one

[Jonathan Gupta]

DOKTOR
TURN OFF MY SCHIZO INHIBITORS

SCHIZOPHRINA THIS IS WHY IM BANNED.

[sinfulbliss]

i think schizophrenia isnt just "crazy disease" but probably like a gradient of how perceptive and aware you are of shit. for example being a retard would be on the bottom of the gradient but being so hyperperceptive that you start seeing and hearingthings and making up people like Alex would be at the top of the gradient.

i feel like it'd be better to be closer to crazy than closer to retard, but maybe the retard is happier as a retard. what's the saying, like, "ignorance is bliss." what do you guys think.

[XivilaiAnaxes]

i think schizophrenia isnt just "crazy disease" but probably like a gradient of how perceptive and aware you are of shit. for example being a retard would be on the bottom of the gradient but being so hyperperceptive that you start seeing and hearingthings and making up people like Alex would be at the top of the gradient.

i feel like it'd be better to be closer to crazy than closer to retard, but maybe the retard is happier as a retard. what's the saying, like, "ignorance is bliss." what do you guys think.

i think ur a fukn retard

[Timonk]

its ok we know you have schizophrenia and are trying to deny it

[Pandarsenic]

It also occurred to me while I was checking unreads that I always figured Legoscape's signature was a joke or some really old history or something, not "Haha watch this lmao"

[Timonk]

Lego has a signature?

[Pandarsenic]

Oh. It's gone now. It was a quote from the beginning of Yog's "The Legoscape Story"

[sinfulbliss]

i think schizophrenia isnt just "crazy disease" but probably like a gradient of how perceptive and aware you are of shit. for example being a retard would be on the bottom of the gradient but being so hyperperceptive that you start seeing and hearingthings and making up people like Alex would be at the top of the gradient.

i feel like it'd be better to be closer to crazy than closer to retard, but maybe the retard is happier as a retard. what's the saying, like, "ignorance is bliss." what do you guys think.

i think ur a fukn retard

no u dont ur just saying that to sound edgy and hip

[saprasam]

i think schizophrenia isnt just "crazy disease" but probably like a gradient of how perceptive and aware you are of shit. for example being a retard would be on the bottom of the gradient but being so hyperperceptive that you start seeing and hearingthings and making up people like Alex would be at the top of the gradient.

i feel like it'd be better to be closer to crazy than closer to retard, but maybe the retard is happier as a retard. what's the saying, like, "ignorance is bliss." what do you guys think.

i think ur a fukn retard

no u dont ur just saying that to sound edgy and hip

no you're just genuinely retarded

[Jonathan Gupta]

i can hear the voices but not see them, im high up there.

[oranges]

Before you read: I am not targeting anyone in my post. This is a catharsis for me and you cannot simply water it down to target posting. It's a very complex story spanning years with my advice. People change, I know that personally. I am also terrible with words but I try.

The good

When I was a child, My family and teachers taught me to "Follow your dreams and work hard to achieve them." Uncountable people in this world, from ocean to ocean, have been told this simple yet powerful advice. Somehow, Some random, Cosmic events caused Exadv1 to exist to develop the base code of this game. Exadv1 put forth and worked on the idea of Space Station 13; That one in a million idea that created such an intoxicating game and eventually led to what I can only say is a masterpiece. I have played Space station 13 for nine years of my life. Nine years is a long time, which I regrettably, Should have used elsewhere but nonetheless, nine years well spent. This game only was made because of the hard work and dreams of Exadv1. When he released his code in 2006, This game developed multiple sub-communities of people coming together to create and play a two-dimensional space-man game. We've made this game, this community in all of their glory. Space station 13 has defined a genre and represented our dreams for almost two decades. No game even can touch the level of detail, Game design, or community that we have built together. I hope it goes on for many more decades. I want to look back at space station 13 as a good memory that got me through some hard times in my early life. This game placed a veil on the world through some of my worse times: losing my friend Andrew to cancer, my family to sickness, and the loss of friends and precious time I have left. And for this, I look highly upon this masterpiece and the countless joy and fun I've had with it.

The Bad

I joined this community in 2012 When I was a stupid twelve to thirteen-year-old child. I had stumbled upon something I could never understand at such an age. And thus, I had some problems developing in this community, Socially. I was in a very toxic place when I had begun. I began in ss13 by playing on Noxious Station and Facepunch because I started playing Garry's mod at a young age. If you know how kids are treated on Garry's Mod, you should see the appeal of the anonymous nature of Space Station 13. I always tried to act cool and "fit in," but it was clear that I was an underaged kid who lied about who they were to get some "cookie points." The communities I had started playing in 2012-2013 created a personal toxic mindset. This game thrived on toxic communities of liars, degenerates, and megalomaniacs. And me? I was just a dumb, impressionable kid who thought It was always ok to do these things, To Lie, To Cheat, and to try to fit in the false perception I had created of every community. When I finally got old enough to have my own email, I started the account "Alex."This was also the time I began to play YogStation. The hell I raised, The enemies made, The bridges burned, they were plentiful. This was the beginning creation of the "Alex mentality." The same mentality I still have problems with today. I always make enemies with people I think are there to hurt me or harm me, but more times than not, it's my fault. In 2013, I began playing Yogstation, and this was when the harassment and bullying from the admins and players began to solidify my mentality of people. It started as the typical "bully the kid for being on the internet," Then It got very personal to me. There was Doxxing from the owner, Personal daily harassment, and it made me feel alone and empty on the inside. To this day, it still does.

The Alex

When your early life develops, You have to deal with this harassment and bullying because, as everyone says, "They're just trying to get you angry." or "They're trying to make themselves feel better." This was not true in my case; My bullying was personal, the harassment was targeted and daily. They tried to gain an advantage over a lonely, sad child because they could, And these were older teenagers or adults; They were in every regard toxic and degenerate. I remember crying myself to sleep many nights and bottling up that anger and sadness, and I brought it to school. Friends who opened themselves entirely to me always made me feel some catharsis and removed those feelings of pure loneliness. These people I've known as true friends and I still play games with them and go out to exercise to this day! When my mentality developed, I had developed clashing ideas. I have always been nice to people but never trusted them. I could feel for people, but I showed no emotions. I could be nice to every stranger I met but never really mean it. I remember going to my aunt's funeral, and I never cried; I sat there quietly until it was over and not said or feeling a single thing. It made me more complex as an individual. This isn't saying I don't feel anything; I do. It's just more challenging for me. I wanted to tell my thoughts and feelings about this game and my situation because I have strong passions. I also want to say to those who are vulnerable that you are not alone. This is just the beginning of your long journey and you are strong, and you have humanity in your heart, so be strong. Be strong for those around you because they could be in the same situation. And for those who often speak against people to belittle their integrity, To make them feel low. You do not understand what you can do to people; You do not understand the change that can be caused by words alone. I stand as a beacon of change, and I'm still changing today, Always trying to better my mind, mentality, and body. Take what I say as advice and do not be like me; I was destined to be alone, friendless, and sad. This is my catharsis, Don't let your emotions build up and spill out; it takes far more work to put yourself together than to fall apart.

[sinfulbliss]

i think ur a fukn retard

no you're just genuinely retarded

"And for those who often speak against people to belittle their integrity, To make them feel low. You do not understand what you can do to people; You do not understand the change that can be caused by words alone."

[Qbopper]

your mom is so fat that she

[Super Aggro Crag]

your mom is so fat that she

She wat

[cacogen]

ate the rest of his sentence

[Rohen_Tahir]

i think ur a fukn retard

no you're just genuinely retarded

"And for those who often speak against people to belittle their integrity, To make them feel low. You do not understand what you can do to people; You do not understand the change that can be caused by words alone."

Cope

[Fishimun]

digg

redditor

[sinfulbliss]

i think ur a fukn retard

no you're just genuinely retarded

"And for those who often speak against people to belittle their integrity, To make them feel low. You do not understand what you can do to people; You do not understand the change that can be caused by words alone."

Cope

STICKS AND STONES MAY BREAK MY BONES BUT WORDS WILL NEVE-
...STICKS AND STONES MAY BREAK MY BONES BUT WORDS WILL NEVER H-
......STICKS AND STONES MAY BREAK MY BONES BUT WORDS WILL NEVER HURT.... me...

[Not-Dorsidarf]

Also we might get an episode 2 of legoscape when he multikeys (which he has done on yog before)

Multikeying is when you play with 2 accounts neither of which are banned.

What legodude will do will be bog standard ban evasion.

[sinfulbliss]

Also we might get an episode 2 of legoscape when he multikeys (which he has done on yog before)

Multikeying is when you play with 2 accounts neither of which are banned.

What legodude will do will be bog standard ban evasion.

Multikeying is a shit solution especially to ban evade. The problem is there's no good servers other than TG, so if you're a hardcore TG player it's hard to just suddenly stop playing it. Don't get me wrong there are good servers and codebases, but you have to relearn the whole game and make new friends, and that's a pretty difficult task.

[Atlanta-Ned]

The problem is there's no good servers other than TG, so if you're a hardcore TG player it's hard to just suddenly stop playing it.

sounds like a good reason to not do shit to get urself banned

[Screemonster]

Also we might get an episode 2 of legoscape when he multikeys (which he has done on yog before)

Multikeying is when you play with 2 accounts neither of which are banned.

What legodude will do will be bog standard ban evasion.

Multikeying is a shit solution especially to ban evade. The problem is there's no good servers other than TG, so if you're a hardcore TG player it's hard to just suddenly stop playing it. Don't get me wrong there are good servers and codebases, but you have to relearn the whole game and make new friends, and that's a pretty difficult task.

it's easy for him to make friends he just invents them