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How has your life been going in this new age of 2016?

Has anything significant happened to you? Is your life on the uptick, downtick, sideways tick or has it started tocking?

As far as it goes for me 2015 was the greatest year of my life, and 2016 has just kept this cocktail of bad decisions and dumb luck going.

So far, quite bad (but not my worst year ever, that was last year), but if some plans go well it'll be the best year of my life, if those plans go badly however, it'll probably collapse and end up WORSE than last year.

Mood for this year: Scared.

So far, pretty much excellent. Just got a new job related to my bachelors degree that shows some promise of advancement. Worked what will hopefully be my last ever shift at McDonalds on thursday, so happy to have been able to quit. Might be moving out on my own in the next couple months. Also i made admin which is pretty cool. Hoping everything holds together

As long as no more of my family members pass away this year, I think it'll be good

Some improvements, but it seems like there's a lot of feeling like garbage.

I'm trying harder, which is, well, hard.

This heat is fucking unbearable too, makes doing anything but sitting on the computer in front of a fan drinking cold water twice as hard.

every day smells

Mood of this Year: Disgruntled.
Incompetence and Stress abound at work. My Dad is surviving in hospice longer than we expected. sigh.

This year will be the most important year of my entire education. I have to wrap up the busiest semester I've ever had, and in the next 12 months, I'll have to write a master thesis and finish a research internship if I want any hopes of getting my MSc degree by this time in 2017.

I'm moderately freaking out but I also have a weird kind of self-confidence right now?

Ricotez wrote:This year will be the most important year of my entire education. I have to wrap up the busiest semester I've ever had, and in the next 12 months, I'll have to write a master thesis and finish a research internship if I want any hopes of getting my MSc degree by this time in 2017.

I'm moderately freaking out but I also have a weird kind of self-confidence right now?

You've come this far. You can totally pull it off m8

it's fuckles

Well me and my ex got back together after several months of being best friends after the break up, and I'll be moving in with her come summertime so I can go back to school.

M0nsoon wrote:Well me and my ex got back together after several months of being best friends after the break up, and I'll be moving in with her come summertime so I can go back to school.

YOU FUCKED UP

Might need my appendix removed I dunno but I found out my once smaller kidney grew to be normal sized.Go kidney go make that piss.

My 3d modeling skills has improved, I plan on moving to orlando soon, and got a raise at work.

Bretty gud so far.

Everything is shit and I want to get off Mr Bones' Wild Ride.

2k15 was a long downhill slide and gravity is not on my side

I got on antidepressants towards the end of 15 and it drastically improved my life, but it was too late to save my grades and I had to withdraw from last semester. I'm back now and editor of the student newspaper along with one of my friends and this semester is looking way better.

Mister_Doc wrote:I got on antidepressants towards the end of 15 and it drastically improved my life, but it was too late to save my grades and I had to withdraw from last semester. I'm back now and editor of the student newspaper along with one of my friends and this semester is looking way better.

I've been there as well. I started taking them in August, and I was able to stop taking them a few months ago.

I'm almost at my weight loss goal and have nowhere to go but down, and I'm going to get my student loan payments reduced so I can save money and pay off my credit card. Hopefully I'll have enough saved up to enter the Software Guild later this year. I think my decision to do that has been my Big Thing of the year thus far.

tedward1337 wrote:

Mister_Doc wrote:I got on antidepressants towards the end of 15 and it drastically improved my life, but it was too late to save my grades and I had to withdraw from last semester. I'm back now and editor of the student newspaper along with one of my friends and this semester is looking way better.

I've been there as well. I started taking them in August, and I was able to stop taking them a few months ago.

You... you can come off Antidepressants? I thought they were a life long commitment.

I discovered waifus but no-one wants to engage in engaging discussion concerning waifus with me no matter how I try to engage

You all think you are better than me huh well how about you come here and not online huh

Remie Richards wrote:

tedward1337 wrote:

Mister_Doc wrote:I got on antidepressants towards the end of 15 and it drastically improved my life, but it was too late to save my grades and I had to withdraw from last semester. I'm back now and editor of the student newspaper along with one of my friends and this semester is looking way better.

I've been there as well. I started taking them in August, and I was able to stop taking them a few months ago.

You... you can come off Antidepressants? I thought they were a life long commitment.

Honestly, it wasn't easy, but you can. i'm working a lot now, and I feel like I have a reason to get out of bed because of it.

I learned that I'll probably be moving back to the east coast this year and I'm extremely pleased.

Except for the fact that I'll be driving a uhaul the several thousand miles to get back there.

tedward1337 wrote:

Remie Richards wrote:
You... you can come off Antidepressants? I thought they were a life long commitment.

Honestly, it wasn't easy, but you can. i'm working a lot now, and I feel like I have a reason to get out of bed because of it.

Seconding. It's possible. It's dangerous though, and there'll be times when you slip and fall. I wouldn't encourage other people to look at it as "the goal", as there's nothing wrong with lifelong pharm. treatment and that works out better in almost all cases.

The goal should be to reach a point where depression doesn't impact your quality of life. If it takes medication to get there you shouldn't feel like you haven't reached that goal yet. You're there. If you can get there without medication that's good too, but avoiding medication out of stubbornness or pride wont get you anywhere.

I feel like every one of these conversations needs the sub-clause that "None of us are medical professionals or psychiatrists, and you should probably talk to one of those and see what is best for you before you listen to ANY of the bullshit we have to say."

I used to have manic depression. Constantly would just lay in bed, thinking about killing myself. I sometimes thought about how others would feel. I was too afraid to die. Eventually got to a point where I'd let things slide so far that life lost all meaning, I just went around not doing anything but surviving like an animal. I can't really describe what happened after that, I just... went around, talked to people, made some friends, and got better. It wasn't a fast process, it took years, I just didn't think about myself. I thought about making other peoples lives better because mine was so empty. I like to hide a lot of my insecurities behind my humor. Anything to get some kind of a happy reaction out of people, whether that was making them laugh, be grossed out, or what. Some days I still find it hard to get out of bed and keep up that act around people, but that's just life.

An0n3 wrote:

tedward1337 wrote:

Remie Richards wrote:
You... you can come off Antidepressants? I thought they were a life long commitment.

Honestly, it wasn't easy, but you can. i'm working a lot now, and I feel like I have a reason to get out of bed because of it.

Seconding. It's possible. It's dangerous though, and there'll be times when you slip and fall. I wouldn't encourage other people to look at it as "the goal", as there's nothing wrong with lifelong pharm. treatment and that works out better in almost all cases.

The goal should be to reach a point where depression doesn't impact your quality of life. If it takes medication to get there you shouldn't feel like you haven't reached that goal yet. You're there. If you can get there without medication that's good too, but avoiding medication out of stubbornness or pride wont get you anywhere.

I feel like every one of these conversations needs the sub-clause that "None of us are medical professionals or psychiatrists, and you should probably talk to one of those and see what is best for you before you listen to ANY of the bullshit we have to say."

Completely agree with this, medication helped get through difficult times, and I was able to get through it, I did also have my family as well to support me.

Its different for everyone, but I can promise everything does get better.

post yfw admins are so young the'yre just moving out of home

Fuck I feel old

Eh even the well paid young adults I know aren't moving out. Probably a local thing due to the Australian housing market being coco bananas and rent amounts basically being resulting mortgage payments near directly extracted from you anyway.

Buy a house. It's better to be paying a mortgage then just giving some dumbfuck rent.

Rent should have dropped everywhere us response to a shitty real estate market and declining economy, but it didn't. The upside to this: you can buy a house for cheap. The downside to this: if your credit rating sucks or you're uncertain where you want to settle down you're going to get fucked.

I bought my first house and car last year, so this year will probably be relatively tame in terms of life-changing events.

I aim to become less lonely in 2016, but it's been shitty so far with plenty of death and illness, so my mood so far is -exhausted-

waiting to hear back from grad school programs that I don't even really want to get accepted into but the alternative is being broke as fuck, not that graduate school is going to change my state of being broke as fuck

the career I am in sucks and so does the city I am in and so do the people I know and so does the game that monopolizes my time (kidding) (or am I)

life is shit

What career are you in?

rather not say but trust me that it fucking blows

bandit wrote:rather not say but trust me that it fucking blows

I know it's a lot easier for me to make this suggestion than it is to actually go through with it
but...

if you already feel that way about it, you should probably get out and switch to something you find more fulfilling.

How old are you?

my job sucks

musicians that i pretend to like for old people cred keep dying

finishing a degree has never seemed further out of my grasp

the future is dark

2016's doing alright for me i guess

I'm just planning to stick around till 2090 when we get artificial superintelligence and will all become immortal.

Well the old man is declining and his hallucinations are getting a lot worse. The anti-psychotics don't seem to be helping, but at least he's taking his painkillers.

I wish I could do something...

But Euthanasia is illegal in Florida. Yea. I said it. I'd rather he die than suffer like this any longer. But I can't do shit about it.

I'm learning java

The main benefit I've gotten out of my meds is that my mood is more stable; beforehand it was really easy for something little to spiral into a whole depressive state, being bored would usually progress into ennui and being sad would progress into feeling worthless. I'm really glad that I have a wife who knows what I'm going through because I've been dealing with this since middle school but hadn't really acknowledged it as depression until recently. Hell we are on the same meds, just different dosages and mine will probably go up. Also one of our friends moved in with us and we're all stoners so that's fun. Also I'm co-editor of the university newspaper with this friend now so yay responsibility.

mid-twenties, so long enough to have fucked shit up

bandit wrote:mid-twenties, so long enough to have fucked shit up

Sure that's one way to look at it, but that's still like 60+ years to try again.

If all goes well, I'll be getting my CCNA certification this year

today was a bad day

when I say the best parts of it were the two exams I had to take I am not joking at all

Zilenan91 wrote:I used to have manic depression. Constantly would just lay in bed, thinking about killing myself. I sometimes thought about how others would feel. I was too afraid to die. Eventually got to a point where I'd let things slide so far that life lost all meaning, I just went around not doing anything but surviving like an animal. I can't really describe what happened after that, I just... went around, talked to people, made some friends, and got better. It wasn't a fast process, it took years, I just didn't think about myself. I thought about making other peoples lives better because mine was so empty. I like to hide a lot of my insecurities behind my humor. Anything to get some kind of a happy reaction out of people, whether that was making them laugh, be grossed out, or what. Some days I still find it hard to get out of bed and keep up that act around people, but that's just life.

My friend, no matter what you think, you are valuable to me and to this community. I know I don't know you personally in any way outside of this forum or this game, but I am glad that you're still around. Fighting suicidal thoughts is a difficult battle, but you came out on top, and now that you've got that victory behind you, I know you can take on whatever else life throws at you.

I've been through some really tough shit myself (although I'd rather not say what it was, as I like to keep my presence in this community lighthearted and separate from my life's tragedies), and I assure you I resonate with your sentiment on feeling worthless and taking years to recover. I'll tell you this, my friend: Optimism goes a long way. People like to say that as a sort of default response, and I know it's a very overused term, but it's true. To get better, you have to want to get better, and to find that desire to get better, you need to think positively, even if your positive thoughts are as low as "I survived myself again today."

Keep up your fighting. Life goes on, and it gets better; not every tragedy has closure, and that's okay.

Oh I'm better now. That was around 10 years ago. Haven't thought about seriously killing myself in at least 5 of those. Depression wasn't really a "disease" for me, if it's even that for other people. A lot of people I know who've said they've had depression in my life were just faking it for sympathy or were self-diagnosing themselves when they had other problems instead. My depression was more about the conditions my life was at the time. I was rather poor, slept on a mat in the living room and didn't really have any friends. I was a very awkward person, and my parents had kept me basically shut-in for my whole childhood and teenage years so I was not the most sociable of people. One day I just woke up and thought to myself that I wanted to go do something that day, so I went and volunteered in some community events and met my friends that way. I don't think they really specifically helped me get out of either, they were just kinda there. A bunch of guys I could be real with, in a way I couldn't even do with my own family.

I don't know if "disease" is really the right word for it. If Alcoholism can be a disease, in that it's hereditary, then I suppose depression can be too.

"Disorder" seems more apt, to describe biological depression stemming from a chemical imbalance in the brain (or other physical sources in the body, there's some findings that some stomach problems or GI issues can also lead to depression because of how serotonin works).

I could talk about this stuff at length forever but I think I've said enough already and would rather give other people the chance.

Assholes, I knew I shouldn't have read this thread.

Been trying not think about my own problems lately, been sort of working too.
Or maybe because I've been focused on getting past the two surgeries I've had/are having.

Zilenan91 wrote: A lot of people I know who've said they've had depression in my life were just faking it for sympathy or were self-diagnosing themselves when they had other problems instead. .

I've met too many people that did this. It got me rather upset when I hear people say they 'have' it, as opposed to the people who are really affected by it.

My experience with depression involved me not wanting to talk about it with anyone, I was ashamed to think I had depression because I thought I was generally a happy person. I was wrong, and I let my pride get in the way of me actually seeking help for it. I'm glad my mom talked me into speaking with a doctor about it, because I doubt I'd be the same person now if I didn't start anti-depressants.
This year so far has been good, but I'm not looking forward to February. It's going to be a really difficult time.

paprika wrote:I'm learning java

java's dead

IcePacks wrote:

paprika wrote:I'm learning java

java's dead

the JRE sucks but the language itself gets used in a lot of other stuff too, like Android and JavaCard