feem wrote:Here are some suggestions:
Read the rules and the precedents. Don't assume you understand them, and don't read them with the intent of finding ways out of whatever you think you did or didn't do. Just read them fresh, and think about the motivations behind the rules and why they might be there.
Think about how your actions and opinions and behavior might be viewed by someone who's enforcing those rules, but who doesn't have the knowledge of your intent or motivation. Don't do this from the perspective of explaining it to someone or vindicating yourself, just think about why people might react to you the way they do.
Try not to approach this ban as something improper that you have to correct, as something someone is accusing you of, or as anything else which results in you dismissing or explaining away any possible reasons for banning you.
Give the administration the benefit of the doubt here, at least a little: from our perspective, there are outstanding issues with your play style and behavior which have not been resolved. Read the posts that have already been made which explain those problems, and think about why we might feel that way about them rather than just dismissing or explaining why we're wrong.
Think about this: the vast majority of our regular players go hundreds or thousands of connections with very few notes, positive or negative.
Take some time to chill and let others chill. This is a spectacle at this point and the more annoying and troubling the ban appeal becomes for the administration to deal with, the less likely a rule zero ban is to be lifted, as that administrative overhead is usually a factor in the ban being placed in the first place.
I know you care about this game, but you weren't banned in a vacuum.
Alright man. I know you mean mean good at heart, there's a lot of perception and reality that we just can't check for everyone.
I would take my time to chill, I just want this cleared out. It feels like a forced chill on what normally wouldn't have happened.
I hate to stress out the administration over this. I and all the admins involved didn't expect this to turn into a full on rule 0.
Everyone expected PKP to handle it and was likely lifted.
That's what is stressing me and giving me the hubris to fight on.
I expect the same honesty I give out. I don't want to hold back or sugarcoat anything that has happened.
It's much easier to compare myself with others and ask "why aren't they banned? why am I the one in the firing line" than to accept my part in things right now.
I'd like some benefit of the doubt here given to me that there's a lot of false perceptions about me and the reality is only seen by a handful of people. I believe ausops is a fine admin that has been here for a long time, but things take a toll when everything is brought to argument. Yanking names and screaming "hey you missed a spot" isn't helping and is certainly not what I want to do.
There's a lot unresolved and a lot unanswered for.
I'll bear the truth and reality of what I do twisted and made into lies, though neither friends or haters can affect me, they can count on me but not too much.
I can wait and not tire of waiting, and I don't deal in lies.