Grazyn wrote:wesoda25 wrote:if elyina was readminned with admins actually knowing about this and accepting the reason “they changed”, we should just make usednapkin host. claiming someone has changed hardly works for unbanning people, but we’re actually using it to admin people now?
They were also cleared to run for headmin, this is much more terrifying, and definitely something that should never happen again
You don't know anything about me. You read a false and mistaken accusation on hut of all places and have taken it at face value. Yikes.
Again please do not think I am defending elyina, I think what they said was very unbecoming of an admin.
If you're referring to the 6 years old accusation, I expected better from you Jim. I didn't think you would take an NTR hut accusation at face value.
I won't pretend that I've never wronged intigracy. I have, and I have apologized to him for it multiple times, and I'l say it again here: I'm sorry intigracy. I regret what I did. I think about it all the time and how I could have done things differently.. I was under the impression he had accepted my apology and moved on from a pastebin he had sent me a long while later. I am on good terms with everyone else that had been involved. The full story will not ever be posted here, it's very personal and contains sensitive and personal details of several different people. If it were to be posted, I would certainly consider that an act of doxxing. Citrus, Jim and Owgeno, the headmin team that approved me, and sticky, were fully aware of the details of the situation. I made no attempt to hide anything from them. Everyone who needs to know about it already does, and to anyone else, it's frankly none of your business. I've had a great track record as an admin since my return, and had nothing but positive feedback on my trial review. I'd go as far to say every admin that has had extended interaction with me with an open mind would have nothing but positive to say about me. If that is not enough to convince you that I am a changed person from 6 years ago, I don't think anything else will. I could cure cancer and end world hunger, and you'd still say "yeah, but what about that
thing? So there's really no point in me bothering to try to convince you otherwise.
Now onto the accusation. As I said in my previous post that seems to have been mostly ignored, I don't think intigracy is intentionally lying, but rather that he is mistaken. He never confided to me about childhood abuse. I believe he has mistaken me for someone else or others he may have done that with, but he believes he had told me because paprika mentioned to him that I did. The actual context of that conversation pap referenced is that we were discussing the purpose or cause of intig's odd behavior back then, which even he has admitted was odd, I mentioned I thought it was possible he may have been abused, having correlated some similarities between us with a similar trauma of my own. Paprika was either confused with what I said, or he exaggerated what I had said in the heat of the moment when he was angry at the time he was telling it to intig, as was a common thing for pap to do back then. If I had done this, I would own up to it. And especially if I had done it without ever apologizing for it, I would have felt guilty enough about it to have at least reached out to him to do so at one point. I still carry guilt with me to this day for the things I actually did do that have long since been moved on from. Nervere has also already investigated this situation, and determined that no action is necessary.
That is all I have to say about this. You're free to draw your own conclusions and continue dragging my name through the mud, but when it comes to admins doing so, that is very disappointing to me. I thought some of you had developed a basic level of respect and trust for me after interacting with me in admin chatter for the past 6 months. To see you make such posts because of a single NTR hut post after 6 months of getting to know me is very disheartening. That especially goes for you squid.
Thank you Laz for standing up for me. It's in times like these it becomes evident who you can truly count on.